My Love

I asked myself 9 days ago

What is my best way to Be now?

 

And this revelation came to me at 4.09am:

 

"I now know to Be my own true love."

 

Bobby

Bobby Sweetheart,

this is one of my lovely pictures of you,

with your shining heart beaming through,

so much so, the vet always said,

when we thought it was the end,

"He's got a strong heart.

He wants to stay, he is happy with you,

so keep taking care of him"

In this photo Bobby was cradled in my lap

and we shared love and play for 9 weeks more.

With love to all for your gentle thoughts,

Blessings,

Bee and Bobby xoxo

 

 

 

Noticing Quiet Things

This winter glow

brings quiet things

rarely noticed

but deeply felt as caring gifts

thankfully received

and continually cherished in my deepest heart.

 

Grace, peaceful blessings and deep serenity

to all, Love Bee xo
 

Lighting Our Way

 

Sweet love of mine, what joy I have

I am most glad to see you

dressed in pearly white this full moon night.

Shall we dance, sweet jonquil,

shall we sing quietly

shall the stillness bring us through.

The years of tears

are gently taken to heaven to rise again

and fall with the spring rain,

when time has passed and our hearts are lifted

with the artistry of daffodils

blooming on the grassy hills.

 

These Jonquils are chosen with fondest love

for my Dad, my Mum and my best friend, Bobby

who passed away,

in separate years, in the morning of July 5.

One Day Before Yesterday

 

One day before yesterday

you gently passed away.

Your soul left in a second, 

so your glorious running, playing,

eating and now sleeping body is resting.

 

Yet, still I see you playing 'chasey'

or in your favorite tunnel nest

under the old lilac tree

with your toys and pixies

peeping through the strappy leaves

where tall blue lilies will always be.

Us always walking around together,

picking posies and sniffing flowers will be

my happiest memory.

Little Bobby Sweetheart,

everyone loved your super happy smile,

your joy, your play will always stay,

as your deeply gentle fondness

was shining brightly every day.

 

Best friends from the start,

Bobby, you will always be in my heart.

Always in my heart.

Bobby - November 2010 to July 5, 2024

 

I Lay The Past To Rest

There were different roads that I chose to go

and some long ways in another direction

but always, then came an intersection

with a higher way to take that day

and the next, until I found the best path yet. 

 

Not at all easy.

Some days my bones are going slow

so life it brings Simplicity.

I find Joy at the start of every path

back to the beginning.

 

Long ago, when I walked a different way

I shaved skin off my shinbone

I mostly felt all alone

misunderstood

so I did Tai chi among the trees

I walked home alone in the dark

yes for me,

some very contradictory ways to be.

 

I walked and walked,

I worked late shifts, up and down

ten city storeys in a time of little glory

when I could only just pay the rent but I went

bush-walking every morning.

 

I have taken inspiration on outback tracks

I have planted sunflowers in my country field

I have learned from relationships

I have looked to sea

the wide skyline of anchored tankers:

raw-iron-ore going nowhere.

 

So times were not easy to forget.

I was lost in a crowded place

I was invaded in my own space

Maybe I hide in plain sight

I have walked so many paths

I have bundled sticks along the fence

so little lizards hide in them.

Yes I could start a fresh.

So no longer looking back,

I find this track to stroll along.

Just following the flight of birds

and the whispering grass I have always heard.

 

I walk where the trees talk with me. 

I find The Simple Path is my way,

so life is ever so much better this very day.

 

July 1, 2024