Golden Light

How good would it be
if you were here to see these yellow carnations
as we celebrate the 100th birthday
with golden gifts
shining all the way to heaven today.

But we know you come and go
as in our hearts we are all free
so life goes forward as do we.
 
In my life,

and in the closing years of your life,
I lived with deep sadness.

Where did I find this sadness?

Was it from far away in other lands, places,

rivers or seas?

My mother's womb?
My father's heart?
My mother's heart?

Her mother's heart?
How do I call it to rise? 

To share feelings?
Is it a sad song? 

A past life? A yearning to belong?

A way through will come to me.

The truth yet to see.

Now, I am healed.

 

When I learned, to stand aside from it.

I found acceptance, peace, gentleness,

understanding, sincerity, release,

joy and freedom.
 
Then, and not til then,
did I meet my own devoted heart
and then, did I, then see,

all golden light on the path.