The Wells of Sadness

The wells of sadness fill you up

with all the thoughts ‘you are not enough’

and all the times when life was tough

and what you did and who you were

was more than less you ever wanted,

less was more than you could handle

and in your heart you felt the downward spiral.

No-one ever saw you sink

as you just kept going without a blink

onwards

upwards

pushing on

never saying what you felt

letting everyone ride your pony

when deep inside you were so lonely.

Lonely feelings, in lonely hours

and all the while you kept on smiling

‘do your best, just keep going’,

no-one likes a sad old face

just keep going, you’ll win the race.

You’ll get to where you think you’re going

you’ll find the way the signs are showing

and deep inside you do your best,

but rewards are few when you past the test.

You’re empty of the love you need,

you’ve gone through life at another speed.

You got all A’s, but truly now

you feel the haze of where you went

and how you felt,

and disappointing is within,

that you worked yourself

like it all mattered,

when deep within you felt so shattered.

Tired and tight,

dark, not bright,

do your best keep it quiet,

stay at home in your hermit’s life…

I like alone time, it’s calm and quiet.

No one rattles, no one shouts,

I am not pushed or thrown about.

I have my old friend and life is fine

and so am I,

but why inside do I still cry?

I cry because I do keep quiet,

I write my verses

and express with light

but in the night I cough and choke

and wonder where my soul will find

the secret yearning of my heart.

Oh, Love myself that’s where I start.

Let my voice be heard,

let my heart just sing

with all the joy the flowers bring,

the fragrant rooms,

the stillness now,

breathe in peace

and rest your stress,

just be yourself,

do not push and strain

love yourself to the core….

God knows how good that would be

to bring you light and help you see

That all you ever need my love,

is to accept yourself and know,

love is deeper than the sadness well,

so lighten up and prepare to tell.

Share your soul with your heart

and healing comes with the blessed start.

Tell them all how you feel

being kind, is being real.

Part 1, written July 25, 2012,

in the depths of illness from whooping cough.

The wells of sadness fill up when

you think of now and think of then

and all the while remembering

how it was and who you were

and whether much has changed

on looking back 

on the road or off the track.

And now you travel off the track,

the road less travelled

leads you on to life with joy

being light and strong.

Blessings surround you everyday

and healing shows in many ways

and though the challenges

have been intense,

and everyday in every way

your light is brighter

and you hear us say

“keep on going through the light

and all your blessings are beaming bright

and your love is showing through

love yourself begin anew.”

 

Part 2. This was written July 26, 2012,

when I was still dreadfully sick with whooping cough!

I wrote these verses 10 months ago

whilst I was in the dark night of my soul experience.

I am ever so grateful, I am happy now,

with much more joyful feeling in my everyday life.

May 31, 2013