The First Season Of This Life

 

Hello Dear Friends,

 

Well I am here again to continue the writing

from my first post a few days ago.

I said I would share some more details with you,

as to my own mystical revelation with the answer to my question:

 
What is the secret longing of my heart?

The answer is sitting beside you all your life.

It is inside you. It leads you into every lesson.   

It is why you have all the specific life experiences.

It is why I have had my own challenging life experiences until now.....

the subtle, and not so subtle, repeating patterns,

the abandonment, the grief, the yearning, the longing,

the ‘way too often’ self-sacrificing, the pleasing,

the confrontations, the abuse, the rejection,
the need for recognition and acceptance,
the always feeling misunderstood,
and the never disclosing or sharing
the secret about my real feelings.

My personal quest and my spiritual pathway seemed to open
through my ‘Very Deep Wells Of Sadness’.
The deep sadness, no matter where or when,
the yearning and longing, has been my deepest feeling.

I am clairsentient and clairaudient,
as I have been asking for directions and seeking
the light on the path for so long,
all the while waiting and listening for guidance……
For me, in my experience with deep loss and grief,
I received this gift to heal my spirit.
 
I am sustained by visions and lucid dreams,
or phrases and inspirational answers
which come streaming into my consciousness as verses.
Well to continue ……

The secret is the seed planted in the first season of this life.
 
Our secret mission is to realize that we know the answers.
Every path leads to the beginning.
“It all starts humming in the egg” ……
“The secret of life is that there is no secret.”

What you feel the deepest, is your gift to share with others.
What you keep as your secret is why you were born in this lifetime.
It is the clue.
It is the motivator.
It is what you hear yourself, telling yourself for years and years.
You have to look outside yourself to find it.
You look away,
then turn your head to view your life again, and there you are.

Let all pain go.
Be willing to forgive everything.
Trust in your life process to be guided and have the faith and belief that it is.

Dear God, I give this day to you……
There is a divine plan. All is One.
Like a lucid dream… the answer comes.

Anyway the answer comes from your childhood feelings,
and I believe it will be a positive and resounding resonance,
which will surely gladden your heart.

I wrote myself the following question expressed as a wish…..

I wish to find and fully express the secret longing of my heart?

And there in lies my answer.
Three very lucid words came to me 8 days later as I awakened at dawn…

Be Fully Expressive

Yes I knew it all along…I even put my answer in my question!!

Ask and you shall receive…….

Love Bee xo